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You know everyday I am amazed at the generosity of people and the pure hate of others.  So far life has been going good I was sick last week which sucked ass but what are you going to do.  Now its almost like a feel refreshed and re energized.  It feels good, I am getting to that point in the semester were I feel overwhelmd and tired of this shit.  This semester its especially burdening maybe its the fact that I have been doing this for to fucking long, I don’t know.  I am about to go to INFS and listen to my awesome professor talk about databases and shit.  The reason I am writing this is first I felt like it and then someone else prompted me too I was just taken back by the way I was treated earlier.  There is a girl I know that we had talked a little and the first time I met her she was pretty awesome, very talkative and out going but now I really see the BITCH in her.  You know I try to look past that and really just deal with her in terms of being a friend but today really got to me.  I texted her to see if she and friend were eating in the KUC and they were.  I called her and was like hey do you mind if I eat with you.  she respond  “yeah thats fine.” So upon walking in I get a txt message that says “Hey actually our booth is kinda full!!! I’m sorry!!” you know that’s such a fucking cop out. Why couldn’t she say that on the phone when I asked her???? Hmm maybe because there was room she was just being a bitch and didn’t want me to sit there. Oh well I went to another eating area in another building and had a great lunch with my self.  There is so many people that do shit like that and it pisses me off. So I have complied my current SHIT list and my close friends list.

Cherished Friends Currently-

Cathy

Gerald

Josh

Brittany

Clair

Hannah

Matt

Ceira

Jamie

Austin

Gary

EH Kathryn.

Current Shit List

Shanna

Sarah

Other Clair

Sondra- Always on here

Dwaine- That MoFucker is always on it

Thats it for now. Will update later off to class.

You know so many times in our lives we regret stuff and you know sometimes we just brush it off and say you know it wasn’t good but oh well. Then sometimes it really has a big impact on your life its amazing how that works.  You know a while ago I realized I can only apologize so much for something but I can’t go back and change it so we have to look at our mistakes as lessons and move on from there.  I am amazed at how life works everyday we are always trying to satisfy different needs we are always trying to step up to that next level and move forward.  A week ago I made a mistake and have learned from it I am not going to say what I did and I am not totally at fault but it was a mistake I can sit here and regret it all my life but that’s not going to change ANYTHING I am going to have to just move on and learn from it. I have learned from it and am trying to mend those fences and its going to be a long road but I will adjust as need be.  You know I am so set in many ways and I thank god everyday for the good fortune and luck he has given me.  I work everyday to keep on that road that he wants me too but there is one road that I can’t seem to win on and that’s relationships I can either build an awesome relationship with a person right away or totally screw it up.  I am great at building business relationships but friendships lack.  I don’t know if its the lack of my personal skills or if its something I do? But it is there and happens I think a lot of people take advantage of friendships there are so many things in life that you need to be thankful for and your Family and Friends are the most important.  But I feel that a lot of people abuse this and only allow the people that just really fancy them to stay around, the good old people that are there for them well they will be around most all the time so who cares.  I am working to build my relationships and keep them moving in the right direction but everyday I get a new challenge thrown at me.  Slowly I am over coming these challenges its hard but over time I am getting through it.  It’s so hard when the view and ideas you hold on too the most get thrown back at you all the time.  I don’t know where this is going so I will stop here and continue later but just needed to get that out. Well I am doing well just taking life one step at a time and enjoying every second of it.

From Franklin.

Evan.

Listening too:

Helena

Nickel Creek

Have you ever regretted something, I am sure you probably have. Well I do right now, I am not going to talk about, but I made a mistake even after several reconsideration and questions and it still happened. Kinda down today but I know it will get better, just a matter of time. Well I am at work right now 7th straight day I have worked or gone to school so ready for a break a day or something. I am supposedly on fall break what a fall break this has been, hoping to get to AZ in November but we will see. I have a lot of new plans and ideas just got to get going with them.  Been trying to keep a steady meditation schedule its still a little difficult but I am getting there.  I need to desperately go see Rachel but haven’t had time or money right now.

Well better get back to it.

Have a great day,

Evan.

Listening to:

Tri State

Above and Beyond

Well apparently Gary’s server crashed, so my site was lost. So I am in the process of trying to recover all the original post.  In the mean time I am starting fresh and getting a new site togeather.

Evan.